Sorry I missed yeaterday but it started a majour breakdown day I woke up feeling so bad I phoned my sis on my way to work for help. I held it together for my school presentation I got home at 12 to find both my sisters had been there a couple of hrs already and had gutted my kitchen. BY the time I went back to work my middle sis had to leave to get her kids from school. younger sis stayed and we attacked the bedroom. Later I broke down again.

I woke at 12.30 today still in a panic. My youngest sis was here again to help. We had a long chat and I realy don't know what trigerd this off but it needs sorting. We then attacked the bed room again and 2 days 10 charity bin bags and 5 rubbish bin bags later . I can now see most of my my bed room floor. A lot more than the 3ft by the door. I now have 5 bags of clothes to sort an dput away but it is a massive start.

Th ecraft room can wait the rest of the house has to be done it's only fair on my family. My OH is wonderful putting up with my hoarding and depresion over the years but he can't cope with me when I am like this and if he helped me decluter everything would be gone.

I Know all your advice and best wishes are well ment but they are not helping me as I feel such a fool about this already. this blog is a way of me letting it out . I am not a gushy person if you understand what I mean I don't mean to be ruid sorry.